Blogfirmation: When things change within you, things change around you.

 

Wow 10 more days until my birthday. Or what I will call it my Solar Return, my new year. Every year when it gets closer to that day, I tend to reflect on everything that I did prior to that year. I start thinking about my circle and all the things that have taken place til now. It’s like when we get to the last day of the year, you start thinking of new year’s resolutions, or what you want to accomplish coming up. I take my birthday as a moment of reflection. I used to get so excited when the month of May comes around because I always say great things happen around that time. But the wiser I get, (I don’t want to say older), because who wants to get old right? But yeah, the wiser I get, I really don’t want to celebrate like that.

Back in the day, (early 2000’s) I use to throw parties like it wasn’t nothing. When the bday came around I was going to go all out. Food, Liquor, and Music were all planned out. I used to send out invitations, get a cute outfit, make sure hair and nails were done. It was an all-out extravaganza. Back then, I thought I was doing big things. But now I just want to do something low-key and relaxing. I don’t think I can even hang like that.  I am not a drinker anymore, and my lifestyle is so healthy, I don’t even eat a lot of the things that I use to.

I feel like time is moving at a rapid speed and I am just trying to keep up. I feel like how you see it in the movies, with the rotation of waking up and doing the same thing over and over every day. I am just trying to stay more present in the moment, and not think so far out anymore. But I guess this year is different. I say to myself, “Jay there is nothing wrong with celebrating you.”  I truly have people who genuinely love me and want to celebrate with me as well, and you know what? I am here for it. I feel like I need love and support at this time. Good positive energy and a lot of laughter.

I am so grateful that even thinking about the support I have had this year brings tears to my eyes.  I am starting to feel the wiser you become (remember I don’t like that word old) the more emotional you get. I feel so overwhelmed with love. You just know that unconditional love sometimes is rare. You have genuine people who aren’t blood related show that they care about you every day. Friendships that have lasted several decades.  They have seen you in your many facets of life. It really is like a rare gem. Those are the type of relationships that you keep near and dear to your heart.

You get to see your sisters have successful marriages and beautiful kids. You get to see them formulate new relationships that are good for the soul and spirit. You get to see them just thrive and evolve, and manifesting that you will have the same thing as well.  Just making great memories every time you get the chance to. We may not get to talk everyday but we all will send each other memes on social media. That is our way of making sure we are staying connected.

I feel like the closer my bday gets here, the more excited that I am. My bestie is coming to visit me for a whole week. We have not been in the same location for this whole past year. So, this is definitely a major time for the both of us. I have noticed that we both go through transitions always around the same time. Trust it is never planned. I just think our souls know when it is time to evolve. It’s mind boggling to believe that we are almost halfway through the year. Time is just moving at a rapid speed. Since moving to Texas, the weather here has been off the chain. I am grateful that me and my family here survive the tornado that hit a few days ago. Nothing of mine and my family’s property wasn’t damage. But our power did go out for a good while. I have never experienced a tornado ever in life, only hurricanes. The weather is still hot as hell here, now that hasn’t change. And I can only imagine that even though summer hasn’t hit yet, but the temperature here is HOT.  Just preparing myself to stay cool this time around. I thought South Carolina was hot, but Texas is even hotter and more humid.

In conclusion, taking a moment to reflect on the things that that you have done or has happen puts everything in perspective going forward. Do u take a moment to reflect on things in your life? Do you try to make adjustments for the betterment of your situation? I am just grateful that the Creator has decided to give me another year to make things happen and to learn something new. This lets me know that I am definitely meant to be here. So, while I am here, I am making sure that I am spreading good vibes and being my true authentic self.

 

Signing off…….

 

Jay Da Vibe